EU•PHO•RIA

a feeling or state of intense excitement and happiness.

"the euphoria of success will fuel your desire to continue training."

there's multiple significances of this tattoo. the first being that in 2019, when the show aired, i was in one of the lowest points of my life and addict stage. i found comfort in the show and in rue, as it made me feel like i wasn't alone. the depiction of her addiction is based on a true story too, so since i could relate, i was invested in seeing how thing's would turn out. for rue and potentially myself. we all know how szn 1 ended, so you know regardless of any progress, i'd always end up right back where i started.

2020 was tough for everyone, n i spent that time trying to over compensate ig, for the loss and pain i was feeling. i then nearly died after my car was spun into the side of a building. thanks to the drugs, i didn't dwell on it too long n took the loss as an opportunity to really live my best life. now i could do all the drugs i wanted n didn't have to worry about driving. so i started euphoria fridays, where we'd get all dressed up, lit af n watch two eps of szn 1 every week. now anytime i watch szn 1, i'm flooded w great memories and this euphoric feeling. i literally always rewatch ep 1 after getting lit, and absolutely love fridays. so then all that w the nostalgia, i always feel like the literal definition of euphoria.

szn 2 had a massive impact on me as well, and after it ended, i felt like there was hope for me. i was so sure rue was gonna die, just like how i've felt for years. the failed suicide attempts, all the ways i was actively making detrimental decisions and choices. there was suddenly hope. so whether you read this or not, THIS TATTOO MEANS THE ABSOLUTE WORLD TO ME. n it ain't abt fexi or the glitter. euphoria will always have a special place in my heart and now arm <3